Sunday, March 30, 2014

I Can Do It, Denver (Brace yourself it's a long one)

We recently went to the I Can Do It conference in Denver, Colorado. 

For those of you who don't know Louise Hay, Google it! She is a motivational author and founder of Hay House publishing.  She supports many motivational authors from Eckhart Tolle (The Power of Now) and Wayne Dyer (The Power of Intention) to Doreen Virtue (Angel Therapist).
Wanting to eventually expand Ample Wellness and offer life coaching and spiritual healing - on top of personal training - we'll hopefully be attending many more conferences like this one. 

The first day we attended, Wayne Dyer was the keynote speaker - talk about a motivator!  At the age of 74 he is still going strong on his 42nd book.
He opened with thanking all of us for his success,  he said "fame is something others decide to give you, so I thank you for that."

He reminded us that each day we live is a reminder of how little we really know. His main focus was on his new book I Can See Clearly Now, this is somewhat of a memoir recalling all of the significant people and events in his life.

During the Great Depression Wayne was an orphan after his dad left his mother, he then went on to foster care and struggled tremendously in school as a teenager.
As a kid he was motivated by a TV series called 'Life is Worth Living' with Bishop Sheen. Even as a child,  his mother knew there was something special about him. He truly believes his life experiences were picked prior to coming here and he was meant to be a teacher. After his divorce 12 years ago - well they are just separated, but still best friend's - and being diagnosed with Leukemia, he started using his pain as an inspiration for his writing.

His biggest takeaway for me was finding the "I Am" (God, Higher Power, etc.) in yourself and creating a union with it.
Our personality (mind, body, ego) cannot take food and digest it for us, but the "I Am" can. It is in everything that exists in the physical world, but how do you stay connected to the commander in the command center?

He says we are all attributes of God, like cells in a body, contributing to His whole. The best way to know Him is to know selfless love. When there is a strong, compelling urge to help someone... that is pure love. That is the "I Am" inside of you saying "here I am!"

Too often the ego gets in the way of this and says here "I" am. "I" being who we think we are.... In moments like this, be still and know that I (you) am God. (For those of you who know the Bible,  you know that "I Am" is the name given to Moses by the burning bush, who sent him to Egypt to free his people from slavery.)

He continued on saying "The only thing that is real in this world, is that which doesn't change. 
The "I Am" in all of us is unchanging. All other matter exists but is constantly changing." (Hmmm... interestingly true.)

He says to practice pushing aside your ego and accepting that you can't do it by yourself.  Remove fear and replace it with love. Go with what excites you and pulls you, even if it's scary.<-- This is God saying "this is my ideal plan and hope for the world."

The only reason we experience opposites (fear vs love) is because we are no longer connected to our source. Like a rock removed from a Mountain it is called a rock, but once reconnected to its source, it becomes a Mountain.

In hard times, try to imagine oneness and experience only love by focusing on the positive. "Life doesn't happen to you, it happens through you and the journey of 1000 steps begins with one." :)

He said so many great things, but in order to cover the rest of the conference, here is a short list:
  1. The most important thing we have going for us is the awareness that we are loved.
  2. Life gives exams; if you don't pass the first time, unfortunately you have to take it over and over again.
  3. Realize as you look at the significant experiences and people in your life, that something else (God, Higher Power, The Universe, whatever your belief may be, etc.) is working to help you make decisions and understand why you are here.
  4. Be excited about where you are heading. It is possible to perceive a pattern in your life,  unfolding from both ends (past and future), coming into the present moment. It sometimes isn't until later we realize this because we are taught to believe everything is due to cause and effect.
  5. Don't take anything lightly... People and experiences show up in our life for a reason and could possibly be a turning point to where we are headed.
  6. Understand we are all connected. We all share the place we originated from. At the end of our exploring, we will all return to this place and know it for the first time. (Getting here doesn't necessarily mean death, many experience this today - you just need to rid yourself of your false self, the ego.)
  7. We already have this incredible intelligence, this genius inside of us, that is capable of anything we put our intention on, but we act like we are weak because our subconscious believes this to be true.
  8. You are not doing anything, you are just being done. Every desire we have was placed there by something greater than us.
  9. We are doomed to make choices for the rest of our life. What we have been given is what we get, but we still have the freedom to make choices with what has been dealt.
  10. If you take out the storms in life, you also take out the beauty after the storm. Remember to stay in a place of gratitude and love, even during the storm.
Day two of the conference we attended a talk about 'Health As We See It' with Heather Dane and Ahlea Khadro.

Here they mainly talked about the importance of a healthy lifestyle (or diet) to create the success and happiness we all crave so much. They talked about the importance of loving yourself first, listening to your body's messages, and the brain/gut connection.

They said something I found interesting; "you are not what you eat, you are what you absorb." (And all this time we thought we are what we eat!)

They talked about the gut/brain connection. Many neurotransmitters are shared between the brain and our gut and that is why we experience "gut feelings" or "butterflies."
80% of our immunity is located in our gut, as well as 90% of our serotonin production. (Say whaaaaaat?!)

Unfortunately most of our food these days are genetically modified causing anxiety, IBS, lack of mental clarity, depression, moodiness,  irritability, etc.

Apparently Sugar is like heroin or cocaine to the brain (no wonder I have such a hard time with all that candy and baked goods), and has ZERO nutritional value.

They said they believe Will Power is linked to our blood sugar levels. When we have a crash in blood sugar, we're having a crash in Will Power, too.

We also spend, on average, four hours a day resisting all types of temptations and our Will Power is like a muscle. The more we exercise it, the stronger it gets. 

They suggest setting up more loving things in your life to exercise that muscle (healthy food, drinking at least 1/2 your bodies weight in h20, being gentle with yourself, listening to your body, eliminating gmo and gluten, never using your body as a point for self hatred, and going in a direction of love.)

Choosing the right foods contributes to our mental, spiritual and physical health. It reduces cancer, disease, and increases moods. They said all of these things contribute to a healthy gallbladder and many people with eating disorders (a supposedly incurable disease) were healed after creating a healthier gallbladder.

There are four processes our body goes through that are key to a healthy life:
1. Intake
2. Assimilation
3. Illumination
4. Flushing

Basically the process of pooping. (Ha) We all do it,  but do you do it enough? 
Bowels signify our health. We should poop at least once a day and we should view life like we do a nice big poop! When we poop we release all that no longer serves us and we don't ever go into the sewer to try and retrieve it! (So why do we try to retrieve the things we need to release and no longer serve us in other aspects of our life?)

Seems simple,  right?  But we all know that is not how we treat life.

They finished with "We get the chance to love ourselves 3-5 times a day, so choose your food wisely and contribute to a happier/healthier life."

And finally the following positive affirmation by Louise Hay:
I am accepting my physical perfection. 
I am vibrant, healthy, happy, healed and whole from the top of my head to my big toe. 
Every part of my body is in a state of perfection. 
My hands and arms embraced all of life with great Joy. 
My nerves and muscles and bones express comfort and ease. 
My mind and my body are flexible and flowing. 
I have the freedom to move in any direction I choose. 
From inner to outer my body is a joy to live in. 
My inner child is nurtured, loved and happy. 
I have the freedom to move in any direction I choose. 
I forgive everyone and everything I have forgot to forgive. 
I see only perfection in my body and in my world. 
Life loves me. 
I love life. 
And so it is.

The last day of the conference was with Ms. Doreen Virtue. She's an Angel Therapist so talked about our Guardian Angel's, as well as the Archangel's who are here to protect us.

She said that we each have at least two Angel's: a nudging one that pushes us and tells us to keep going, and a loving one that is soft and comforting and shields us from harm.

On top of those two, we have a slew of different ones that come in and out of our lives during certain times; however, due to our Free Will our Angel's will only come to us if we ask them to.
They are pure love. and like God, they see past our ego and they don't judge us for our thoughts.

She went on to talk about how some of us are Earth Angels. These are people who are sensitive to energy, chemicals, and whose deepest desire is wanting everyone to be happy.

Earth Angels tend to give before they receive. She said Earth Angels were born with the veil dropped and they have a clear, visceral - kinesthetic - vision of Heaven, and they are here to assist God with His global mission.

Earth Angel's are assigned to challenging circumstances. They have a strong urge to save people - to change them. Most Earth Angels end up with, or marry, those who should probably be their client. (Interesting!)

She reminded us that we are not responsible for people's healing. "They will only be fixed as much as they want to be fixed."

She said to remember yourself.... If you truly want others to be happy, that includes yourself! (Consistent message from all three Motivators.)

She also said Earth Angel's need to be careful and try not to control everything.

She went on to explain all other people are children of God, but they are here for their own reasons - personal growth.

She talked about Archangel Michael a lot, he is the only angel who speaks.

She's a pretty big Christian but also respects, and is open to all journeys of love and beliefs.

She said angels don't have bodies and they are here to bring us love and reconnect us with God.

She said when you experience the chills, most often that is an angel telling you 'that is truth.'

She also, like Wayne Dyer, said if we don't make decisions for ourselves, the Universe will make them for us - likely not in an as comfortable way as if we would have made it ourselves.

Next she presented a dear Medium friend of hers; boy was that intense! He stood up and started calling on people and communicating messages from their loved ones who had passed on.

There was a lady whose daughter died in a car accident two days after giving birth to her son. She was with her fiancé and all three passed at the same time. He told her about a cup in her cupboard that was her daughters that she looks at everyday.... He said "it has some sort of writing on it," which turned out to be the word laugh. He told her that is her daughters way of reminding her everyday to laugh. The lady was very taken aback by it all.

It was seriously one of the most touching things I have ever experienced.in.my.life!

Doreen said unfortunately the more advanced souls are the ones who leave us early in this life.

She reminded us that when we go through tragedy to find some sort of meaning and growth out of it. She said this is a world of duality, so we came here to experience all emotions, good and bad.

We ended with meditating with Archangel Michael. He is the one to call upon when you are asking about the next steps to take in your life. He has a flaming sword of light and fights fear. She said it is very important to talk to him often and to clear ourselves of fear.

A few little takeaway reminders she had were the following: we are not responsible for other people's choices, let go of low self worth, let go of your ego - the ego just wants us to fear and live in anxiety, and that God wants us to be happy in this life. Being our true self.

A lot of powerful reminders. Why is it we all know this deep down, but we so easily forget?

Denver had a lot more beauty to offer.... 70 degrees, sunshine, cannabis shops, country,  mountains, brewery after brewery, great meat, street art, bow's, tattoo's, Casino's, and a beautiful city! Below are some pics of the side things we got to do outside of the conference... until next time, Denver. Thank you.

GOD BLESS <3











Monday, March 17, 2014

Relationship Blunders

Relationship blunders... Lets be honest, we ALL (bolded and underlined) have them. If you say you do not, then you must be in the beginning phases of your relationship.... And I hate to break it to you - but just wait - it'll happen. #BurstinBubblesAllDay

We're naive to think life, let alone relationships, will be blissful for all time.

My first thought is... Is love real? Like REAL love... is it real? I think so, but is love something we build, create, or grow? Or is love a given? 
I like to think depending on the situation, each love story can be very different. I definitely believe in different levels of love.

My bfs dad once told me he didn't TRULY love his wife until they were married for 15 years. I found that quite interesting and can see why.

The infatuation phase.... Awe. Isn't that the most amazing time EVER?! That time when your partner is literally a DRUG... Something you believe you 100% can't live without! Thinking about them constantly and having those fluttering butterflies nudging your belly.. NON STOP! 
Why does that feeling ever have to fade? Why do the things that drive us crazy about one another turn into a different type of "driving us crazy" as time goes on?

Next is the adjusting phase... Power. Here we start figuring out what the other person's really about. Beginning to panic realizing the relationship is not playing out like The Notebook. 
This also happens to be the time you "shit or get off the pot." Many times people split thinking they can find something better (that Grass is Greener over thataway, mentality) only to realize this will happen again and again. 
We start focusing on flaws instead of all the things that attracted us to them initially. In the past I found myself pulling away here, then causing the other person to become much more needy. (Oops :/)
Continuing on I've found that compromising, being compassionate and growing together is what gets you thru this phase. 

For me, I thrive for growth and it is a MUST HAVE. If I go at it alone, that is where we will drift apart. Compromising here helps us share "the power" (this is a tough one for me.. surprised?).

Up next is the "Make Me Feel Safe" stage. Most of us are always working towards something for one of two reasons: to avoid pain or to obtain pleasure. 
In this phase we need to feel safe. Does our partner truly have our back? Can you fully trust your partner? Can you be vulnerable and let all those walls down (I mean allllllllll of them)? Do you both understand what boundaries exist and accept each other for who you, as well as exactly where you, are? 
If so, here's where "They" (who are They anyways?) say we start feeling that infatuation come and go more often than in the adjusting phase.

The last two phases I would definitely categorize as THE BEST and the hardest to obtain! The commitment and bliss stages. 
This is when we fully surrender (is it 15 years later?) and consciously choose that person regardless of differences, temptation, and knowing all that we know about our partner. Living blissfully (that happily ever after), but understanding the need for growing and nurturing the relationship is just as important as the first day.

Sheesh.. that all seems like a lot of work! But, relationships really are a full-time job. Sometimes sacrificial, or so it feels like it, but aren't the things worth it, always the hardest work?

I know many of you may think Jack and I have this "fairy tale" relationship, that "happily ever after." 
Whelp, you're right... we do! *Wink*
Unfortunately, "happily ever after" is sometimes "crappily ever after!" Ha 

Don't get me wrong, I am so super thankful and grateful for my relationship, struggles, and head strong lifelong lady friend (aka the gf); but yes, we have our relationship blunders, too. 

I would say we are still in the adjusting phase. Both being strong, independent, head strong, women - giving up that power has been rough. 

Lately we've both been under a lot of stress and this power struggle has been accentuating itself a bit more. All healthy stress: baby (ps that beezy AF showed her ugly little face, again! :( Still, we're not losing hope :)), the business, soccer, work, parties, surgery, etc. etc. but stress nonetheless, these times are the real tests. 

I think we've found a good middle ground and realize what is important. At the end of the day, we have come so far and learned so much and choose to keep on truckin'.

I truly believe the following:
* Being in a relationship is a choice... 
* The grass is NOT greener on the other side... 
* Opportunity will knock once, but temptation will bang forever!... and 
* Choose the person who bugs you the least, because EVERYONE will bug you!

I thought this was a nice reminder, and if you're in the adjusting phase... know you are NOT alone. And most importantly, your relationship is normal. <3




Monday, March 10, 2014

Awkward Moments

Everybody loves those awkward moments! Tell me you haven't experienced one, or more of these, and I'll show you a liar. ;)

Like that awkward moment when your 16 year old nephew walks in and catches your girlfriend in her bra. 

Or... That awkward moment when you tell people you're planning on getting pregnant, then have to explain your partner is a girl. Then they proceed to ask "how does that work?" Um.....???

Or... That awkward moment when you step into an elevator, pass gas, and right as the doors are closing someone stops the doors and you are the only one in the elevator. (Ewe!) 

Or...That awkward moment when you fall out of the shuttle at work, in a skirt - on all fours - and you still have four other people waiting to exit. 

Or... That awkward moment when you're in the bathroom at work and the person in the next stall phone rings, you think to yourself "no way they'll answer that," only to be proven wrong, with shock and awe; yes, yes they will and did!

Or... That awkward moment when you take your new girlfriend to meet the family and your nephews start calling her "Aunt Jack" right away... (Cuties!)

Or... That awkward moment when you are passing gas walking up the stairs, you walk back down to air it out, then as your walking back up the stairs your gf puts you on blast an asks "what are you doing?" in a house full if people. (Ha)

Or... That awkward moment you crack a joke about a parapallegic and your best friend gives you this look of disappointment and says "hey, don't forget my dad is in a wheel chair!" Then laughs and says "jk, it's ok." (But her dad really is in a wheelchair. :/) 

Or... That awkward moment when someone eats shit, makes the most funniest face - and action on the way down - then freezes lying face down.... You hold back the chuckle, ask If they're ok and once they confirm, you ask if it's ok to laugh now. (What face do you make?)

Or...That awkward moment when you're first dating someone, sleep over and have to use the restroom first thing... Thinking you're just going number one, then BAM! a loud toot comes out instead and you want to DIE! Thinking if you just stay in the bathroom a little longer, they'll forget it ever happened. (Oops)

Or... That awkward moment when you're stuck in traffic and end up in the middle of the intersection as the light turns red. Blocking ALL from going anywhere, including you who has nowhere to go. (It seems so silly, but I HATE when that happens!)

Or... That awkward moment when you're sleeping, fart SO loud you wake yourself up, and pray to God the person next to you didn't hear. (Oh wait, they're awake)

Or... That awkward moment when your friends do exactly what they swore up, down, left, right, back and forth they would NEVER! #NeverSayNever

Or... that awkward moment when your grown ass friend needs to go to the bathroom (number 2), but is terrified of going in public toilets, so you have to leave and take her home just to poop. 

Or... that awkward moment you walk into the bathroom and all stalls are taken. You wait patiently only to realize you are in the midst of a poop war (people taking a shit but too embarrassed to be the first to come out, so they wait for one another to exit, but nobody moves). 
WE CAN SEE YOU!!!

Or... That awkward moment you enter a bathroom with your friend, she goes into the stall and while you're checking yourself out in the mirror, she has EXPLOSIVE diarrhea!!! 
You say "Jeez, take it easy in there" and it's SILENT. You look back and notice two sets of feet. 
It wasn't my friend. 
You race out of the bathroom and when she comes to find you she proceeds to tell how that was the most awkward hand washing sesh she has ever experienced! #SorryNotSorry

Or... That awkward moment you enter the Girls restroom, use the restroom, then while you're washing your hands a man walks in. He looks at you funny and you say "wrong bathroom, dude! Ha" He walks out and 2 seconds later walks back in and says "Um... You're in the wrong bathroom." (Moted!)

Or... That awkward moment you volunteer to drive to a work lunch and every one gets in, you turn the car on, and your bumping Eazy-E "Real Mother F'n G's!" You look around and what do you have before you? The most priceless faces you ever did see! #Westside

Or... That awkward moment you post something on FB and someone takes it personally, being the first to comment. (Guilty much?)

Or... That awkward moment when you're sitting in the sauna and a big hairy man comes in, lays down and starts doing side leg lifts. Continuing to make eye contact with you while grunting. (Phff 🙊)

Or... that awkward moment people start talking about taking a shit and you know your friend cringes re any topic related to pooping, you look over and realize the look on her face is one of constipation. #LetItOutAlready

Or... that awkward moment you go into a Porta-potty at a Utah game while tailgating, use the restroom, walk out and realize - because you were a little tipsy and your hovering skills are a bit off - you peed all over the bottom of your pants.

Or... that awkward moment, after a long night of drinking, you wake up to your gf stepping in a puddle of pee. Then she proceeds to tell you she woke up to you squating on the side of the bed (OMG!) You clean it up, while your gf pokes fun at you the ENTIRE time, then make the bed only to find HER sopping wet sweats!! #OhHellNo #ThatBitch! 

Welp, I know there's a lot more but hopefully you can relate to at least one f these. Ha 

Thanks to all of you whom have contributed to my awkward moments... they keep us humble. <3






Saturday, March 1, 2014

Third Time's a Charm

It's been quite the busy past couple of weeks.

We've had day of birth celebrations (Me - of course, Dreem, Nat, Shawn (Aquarian's rule!), Sandra and Christy), Boobie consults (Jack's gettin' the girls done March 12!), VDay family Vision board party, Sister-wives RV Shopping, Shmore date nights, poker night(s) - I may or may not be developing a problem, baby Tayte and Brody visits, Bf Sapporo date nights, Comp and Rec soccer practice/games, Golfing extravaganza's, Brittany makes a meal night, mini road trips to Idaho for lottery tickets (see... think it's a problem? Nah... Can't win if you don't play!), Baby making 301, Bec's baby shower, and Sunshine @ the Park.

























Yep, third times a charm. It better be, being 6500$ deep, we're going to have to start a Smith-Wong charity fund soon, if not.

Since it hasn't taken yet, we purchased five viles this go around (3700$), but the good thing is they store them for you for a year. That way if this third time works (or if not, it's a discount on each vile if we do have to use them for me), we'll have four other babes waiting for the time (hopefully within two years) Jack is ready to make her mini-me. 

It's a 475$ storage fee for a year, so come next February, we'll pay that (and purchase more if our Donor's viles start getting low) to store them one more year. 👭

Yes, we are pretty sure we'll be shooting for three baby Smith-Wongs! We'll see how this one goes first though. ;) #KidsAreCray 

It's interesting how each time we do this, we learn something new. There is a "Trigger Release Shot" (HCG) that one can take after your Follicle study (this tells you when your egg will drop) to help you release the egg in the alloted 24 hour period. It's 55$ + 24$ injection fee and hopefully worth every penny (shoot, that's prob the cheapest part of this process).

I don't really understand why doctors wouldn't advise us to do a Follicle study and the HCG shot the first go around... I mean, let's be honest, an additional 200$ is much cheaper than 1500-1800$ a pop if it doesn't take. Things that make ya go Hmmm...??? I guess they assume when there aren't any infertility issues, odds are pretty good (25%? That's not 1800$ good!) 

We went in Friday the 28th for our third insem. Again, it was an amazing experience and our fingers are crossed. The Follicle study was good, we did the release shot, and "all the little dudes" (spermies) as Anna would say, were doing great!

It'll be another two weeks before we find out if it took. And since we took the HCG shot, regardless of when we test, we'll most likely show a positive for the next six weeks. (HCG is the hormone your body starts producing when you are pregnant, so getting the release shot can give you a false positive if tested too early).. So STAY AWAY Aunt Flow!!!

This whole process has been crazy and quite the learning experience; we're glad to be able to share it with all of you. 
Keep your fingers crossed and hopefully in nine months we'll be welcoming baby Londyn into this bright new world. <3





















Gemini Season

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