"Accept your past without regret, handle your present with confidence, and face your future without fear."
Thirty something. Who’s counting anymore, right? The older I get the more I find myself paying attention to the elderly and wondering, what is it going to be like when we are old?
Thirty something. Who’s counting anymore, right? The older I get the more I find myself paying attention to the elderly and wondering, what is it going to be like when we are old?
Will I be healthy? Mobile? Will I love myself fully... ever?
In the past, before life really showed me what I was made
of, I was very stuck in my ways and beliefs about this life. I was very defiant
and defensive about who I was. After divorce and a failed relationships, I've come
to find myself looking in every nook and cranny for who I really am. Was who I
was a false perception or have I grown into a different person... a better person... or worse?
I’ve found that I am much better at things than I used to be
and not so much in other places.
Being oppressed at certain times by certain people I understand that is why in the past I was so defensive. I thought I could take it all on, but now know I need my people to do that. It takes a village. I’ve been cautioned to not becoming overly emotional and rebellious. Wilin' out! The past is in the past. However, when I make wrongs right, or at least try to be the bigger person and make good with my enemies. I've hurt ones I love, made mistakes and hurt myself. But I truly believe we GET TO own it!
In the present, I've learned when I am in the moment is when I am the happiest in my life. It's hard to remain in one state for a period of time though. Even though I don't seem to have a problem staying in shame or guilt when I mess up. Why? I'm not sure. Growth, lessons maybe? Still i strive to be here, in the now. Focus my intentions, take accountability for my part in hard situations, staying here as long as I can. Worry, guilt and shame really are the most wasted emotions we experience. We're supposed to LEARN but not torture ourselves for things we did in the past. Forgiveness is key, even for ourselves. Other than taking accountability and saying sorry, there is NOTHING we can do to change what has happened. Only what is going to happen next... ish.
Looking forward, I love Daring Greatly in life. Laying it all out there. I love Brene Brown's choice to share Theodore Roosevelt's quote:
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.” Theodore Roosevelt
Get in the arena, be vulnerable, and strive valiantly! I know this world is not for the weak. All who come here are brave--daring greatly.
I am so thankful for this life. Believe I am where I am supposed to be. And am surrounded by THE BEST family and friends a girl could ask for. 2019 was beautiful and rough. I learned a lot, processed and let go. I look forward to what the future brings and know I will make great memories. LEEEETTTS GOOOOO!!!
Being oppressed at certain times by certain people I understand that is why in the past I was so defensive. I thought I could take it all on, but now know I need my people to do that. It takes a village. I’ve been cautioned to not becoming overly emotional and rebellious. Wilin' out! The past is in the past. However, when I make wrongs right, or at least try to be the bigger person and make good with my enemies. I've hurt ones I love, made mistakes and hurt myself. But I truly believe we GET TO own it!
In the present, I've learned when I am in the moment is when I am the happiest in my life. It's hard to remain in one state for a period of time though. Even though I don't seem to have a problem staying in shame or guilt when I mess up. Why? I'm not sure. Growth, lessons maybe? Still i strive to be here, in the now. Focus my intentions, take accountability for my part in hard situations, staying here as long as I can. Worry, guilt and shame really are the most wasted emotions we experience. We're supposed to LEARN but not torture ourselves for things we did in the past. Forgiveness is key, even for ourselves. Other than taking accountability and saying sorry, there is NOTHING we can do to change what has happened. Only what is going to happen next... ish.
Looking forward, I love Daring Greatly in life. Laying it all out there. I love Brene Brown's choice to share Theodore Roosevelt's quote:
“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.” Theodore Roosevelt
Get in the arena, be vulnerable, and strive valiantly! I know this world is not for the weak. All who come here are brave--daring greatly.
I am so thankful for this life. Believe I am where I am supposed to be. And am surrounded by THE BEST family and friends a girl could ask for. 2019 was beautiful and rough. I learned a lot, processed and let go. I look forward to what the future brings and know I will make great memories. LEEEETTTS GOOOOO!!!
